God Eat God Abandonment 1. Abandoned [Actual lyrics] Alone again, alone with my sorrow I walk alone from room to room And a black velvet curtain Sweeps me cold marble slabs... So long and hard I kissed That blood came out of my mouth! Oh, don't you return? And a gold locket on a chain Still I always wear... You want to know - there whose images And her hair? So know - they're yours! Oh, don't you return? Or you're on my mind all powerful? But day and night, in a dream, a dream, an hourly, Under the sound of the wind and light crackling fireplace Always, always I am thinking of you... Oh, don't you return? =========================== [Lyrics from the CD booklet, full version] (Notice that the actual lyrics are shortened form of the this full version.) Alone again, alone with my sorrow I walk alone from room to room And a black velvet curtain train Sweeps me cold marble slabs... Oh, do not you return? My steps sounded amid the empty places... From the high walls of the old portraits Look after me quizzically and strictly And look after me... Oh, do not you return? But I remember, as though on the window Where swaying softly curtain Hid me from my suffering Slipped momentarily in my eyes... Oh, do not you return? Her wedding-ring on the day In the frenzy of silent despair So long and hard I kissed That blood came out of my mouth! Oh, do not you return? And a gold locket on a chain Still I always wear... You want to know - there whose images And her hair? So know - they're yours! Oh, do not you return? Or you're on my mind all powerful? But day and night, in a dream, a dream, an hourly, Under the sound of the wind and light crackling fireplace Always, always I am thinking of you... Oh, do not you return? It has long been your cheeks blush faded And look faded... I'm waiting for! I'm dying!.... And if I do not send you a curse How great, understand, my love! Oh, do not you return? 2. Elegy This must be done hopes fall silent fear and terror fade My eye, my eyelids laden gathered together in death dreams Perhaps, in a coffin I dreamed who will lean upon him, who will weep and pray over my cold dead body For whom who never comes I wrote the words I sing And he does hear my song His shade forgave my sins I've heard no voice, no sound I saw no lips, no mouth And no one were around The emptiness I found But my spirit will rise through the shortest way to the far heights where crowd of the unknown incarnations entwined in eternal constellations Who were there outside Crawling deep inside Hidden from my opened eyes Upon the highest mountains high Who were listening me He's danced within my rhyme I am wondering Was it just a point in time? No one wasn't there I saw no flesh, no bones All alone, I am there And only lonely wind blows... 3. In a Sarcophagus I had a dream - - we were dozing in a sarcophagus and we were listening to the ocean how the wave hits the rock and our names were burning two stars were merged into one The century were coming upon us generations were passing The vortices swept us into the hot sand but our names were free from decomposition they were sounded in the hymns of passion and longing and death passed by Only the brilliance of her wings We saw in a dream, eyes dosed And our names were filled with breath of lilies Our names were blooming in a fabulous love 4. Mantra The Supreme Spirit dwells inside of every living creature I'm the radiant sun The Moon among the stars The Knowledge, the Principal Priest The Treasure Keeper, The Most Highest Mountain The Lightning among all weapons The Lord of Death, all-absorbing death The Argument that adduced the Truth The Intellect, The Eloquent That shines in all which splendour-striken I am the Silence of your secrets 5. One Last Step Crawl in ashes, bowed down with the thoughts But the names that I wonder, evil raised within me Prayers unanswered and questions to life The last grasping, eternally bound Thoughts so shallow which sit in despair Drowned in nightmares, eternally hurt at the dawn of rage and profanity, cut deep in your bloodless heart ready to crumble, ready to die All those words in vain impaled in my heart so numb and buried deep in agony a rhyme so vile, is piercing my dreams so real, so near it breaks the crown of sin Devouring the thoughts, of life cast in stone remembering the day, I sold my soul. More mistakes at hand, betrayed by eyes of fate here, denied, and sworn, forgotten in this hell a rhyme so vile, so close and shaped in agony (Note: The last stanza appears in the CD booklet, but is not used in the track.) 6. Seven When this happened to me and why? Time will never tell me why I am dying here in grace May I die alone in this empty place? The woods around me. I see the emptiness! I'm sick and tired of darkened holiness I am the devoted slave Who enters the ancient cave With no name, with no needs. Pure heart... With no fear of shame. Highest regards... "Take my hand, dance with me Hold on tight, look at me... ...carefully. How I dance Dancing within the circle of life" And the time turns to stone Words are empty and crowded with lies once again "Kiss my feet, I will come What d'you see? Whose Kingdom? Yes! I know everything Don't be scared, I am Shelter" Like weeping all the time Words are sad and crowded with lies once again Life and death, love or hate