Totalselfhatred
			Apocalypse in Your Heart


1. Apocalypse

Father - Spirit
Edge of insanity or sanity?
Mother - Earth
Claws from the darkness

Tearing my tattered flesh
Let it burn under the purifying light!
Energies of opposites
Pulling my limbs apart

Inverted and downright reality
Powerless! Begging! Hysteric paralysis!

Heart and mind crushed
The erratic beating pulse
Burning, blinding light, drowning blackness

Wings of angels whipping my skin!

One touch in me
One sound into eternity

Olen selittämättömässä tyhjiössä
Ei vihaa ei rakkautta

No love no hate
Nowhere to be...


2. At War With Myself

At war with myself
Mieleni ainainen sotatanner
Once again in this hell
Ristitulessa raunioina

At war with myself
Riutuneet kädet kaivavat
Fucking war in my head
Hedelmätönä maaperää

On my knees, shattered
Waiting for the fury to settle
To find the haven in this madness
And see the storm to calm

Tired... Empathy my torturer
Only choice whom i'll hurt this time

Torture, empathy, a hurtful choice
Nourishing my true self
Altruistic deprivation

Inside your hearts rest my past
Which kneels to my regrets

Through all the chaos, in the middle of silence
All the burial pits, shelters of my shadow
To perish into nothingness
Through the veils of life and death...

Frei...
Puhdistuneena erillisenä kaikesta
In die Unendlichkeit...
Katson universumiani keskellä aikaa

Im selben Moment wie es mir das herj jerschneidet
Neues Glück erwacht...
In mir aus der Asche der Vergangenheit

Ei saastainen sielu enää ryömi
Befreit...
Ulos onnettomasta ruumiista


3. A Teardrop Into Eternity

Feel the pain...
Kaipaava katse etsii elonmerkkejä toisesta
Tutkii elottomia silmiä jotka tuijottavat tyhjyyteen

Sielun peili on pölyinen - Harmaus ei mitään heijasta
Musta sydän viruu liikkumatta - Kuihtunut on elämän lampi

Hautautuneena parkkiintuneen kerroksen alle
jossa raatomadot kuhisevat - Kyynelille uusia kanavia kaivavat
Jotka ikuisuuteen satavat

Sorrow relief
Buried...deceaced
Feel the pain fade away

Drown me, drown me deep inside
Into this deep
Into this ever-night
Never felt so free before
In this balance
In this gloomy warmth

Drown me, Drown me deep inside
Into myself
Just wanna feel this warm void


4. Ascension

Longing for the way out
To bathe in the blinding light
Golden fields Wither
To dust under my steps

Through these endless catacombs of life
Do i wander, do i stride
Silently leaping into the nothingness
Sheltered within myself

Desert of desolation
Barren land all i can see
Throw sand into my eyes
And i'll rinse them with knowledge
Rain of grieving angels
Awakens the sleeping life

In a Mirage the glare of GOD
On stony steps i breathe suffering
Ascending from the sin of convention

Rising
Breathing the pain
Climbing and fighting
For the highest gain!


5. Anything

Was there something i didn't say
Was there anything undone
I saw you drown but i couldn't help
Lost it all, saved myseld

Just wanted you to stay
Pieces of you left behing
Didn't i want you to leave
A hurtful trail of memories
Just wanted you to be
What leads to your remains
Here with me
Not a sign of what you used to be

Why?
Miksi sirpaleet lankeavat rakkaitteni edessä?

Why?
Miksi kätensä torjuvat, työntävät kauemmas?

Menneisyytesi irvikuva kasvotusten kanssani
Avuttomana, huurtuvat lasin takana

Vaikka haluaisin silittää hiuksiasi
Etäännyn ja käännän selkäni

Break the silence in me
Take the sorrow from me

Why?
Miksi sirpaleet lankeavat rakkaitteni edessä?

Why?
Miksi kätensä torjuvat, työntävät kauemmas?

Please don't strip that mask off
I don't want to see the wicked truth
Let it be
Leave me my illusion
Nail it to the bone


6. Dripping Melancholy

Strength through Pain!

Suffer with pride
All by myself
All the time

I can barely breathe
At these flooding streets
I stand still in the raging stream
Reaching from misery

All the time the burden grows
Drop a tear to was the pain away

It's my soul, a drop of blood
A dead leaf, crushed on the ground
Only a broken mirror reflecting my pain
The drop of blood washed away by rain

...Unbound


7. Cold Room Starstained

Sehnsucht - in die Unendlichkeit
Ikuisuuteen

Heimmveh - nacht dem nicht-mehr-sein
Olemattomuuteen

Freiheit Liebe Hass Einsamkeit
Leben Tod erwiglich vereint
In der Nichtigkeit

Alastomana, haavoittuvana
Alati laajenevassa ajassa
Tässä valtavassa tyhjyydessä
Tähtien kirkkaus kasvoillani

Abschied
Jäisellä vuteella jäähyväisiäni jätän
Kälte
Sisimpäni kylmä kuin avaruus

Suddenly Hurtful Silence
Dividing life from Death
Atararia!


C. - Vocals, Rhythm Guitars
I. - Drums, Backing vocals
N. - Bass
J. - Lead Guitars, Backing Vocals
M. - Keyboards
A. - Vocals, Lead Guitars