THRENODY LYRICS
Bewildering Thoughts (1995)

1. Bewildering Thoughts
2. Dare Restrain
3. Solitude (Craving For Rest)
4. Autumn
5. Fin De Siecle
6. Silence
7. Farewell
8. Willfull


1. Bewildering Thoughts

Of all these things that have happened to me
I see them as in vain
For the reason will bewilder me
Thou, the memory
Of all these things that are happening to me
I see them as strange
For, if love is the reason, then so is pain
So is pain
The reason of this earthly existence
is a mystery to me, to which I bow my head
For, if love is the reason, then so is pain
So is pain


2. Dare Restrain

All I hoped for, my dreams
Defy, my will, struggling to achieve
I will, I will,
Reach
Shattered by setback
Falling down, facing up
Await the moment
The thread spun out
I will, I will,
Seize
All I craved for, my dreams
Dare restrain me, wait and see
'cause I will, I will,
Succeed


3. Solitude (Craving For Rest)

I don't want to think
Just want to be alone
My life, revolving,
Raging on
I don't want to see
The ones who care for me
My mind, somewhere,
I wish to be
I don't want to care
Afraid to lose my dream
My mind, in lust,
Just let me be!
I don't want to live
Just want to be gone
My life, fading,
Into infinity
Darkness
Searching for the light
The dream
It's just too bright
Now, burnt and blind
Even darkness, I have lost
Solitude, my friend
The decision is mine
Leave me now
It is my time


4. Autumn

Once filled with sorrow, wondering,
Only now can I conceive
Descending down onto the earth,
The act is done
I am the leaf, falling from the tree
Colours have faded, wind chills me
Sadness, I am weeping
Now, the storm brings tears
The earth is crying,
For this is the season of dying
Takes me away,
Leaves me
The earth is crying,
For this is the season of,
Dying


5. Fin De Siecle

Faith, religion, leader, chaos,
Fear
As in future, as in past
Will this darkness come to last?
Hear the voices cry for hope
The ideas for the new era
Call for leader, loss of faith
The desire for a generation pure
Call for leader, loss of faith
The desire of a generation lost
Decadence in religion
Leader through chaos
Faith,
Desire,
Confusion,
War
Afraid of the future, desire for past
Will these fears ever come to last?
See the people act in decadence
Pride will have a fall
War, faith, religion and chaos
The third one is yet to come


6. Silence

My friends, don't weep for me
As I explore new lands
I write this final chapter
with grief and laughter
This book, my story
All things come to an end
This book, my story
Silence, as I descend
My friends, don't cry for me
For I have lived
This life, wanting to be free
In your memories I'll always be
This book, my story
All things come to an end
This book, my story
Silence, as I descend


7. Farewell

Strange way it goes
Unable, to change
Hurt, hurt is the bare truth
My life outliving yours
Reminder of time
Your life too short
Despair, the bare truth
Your life before mine
Strange way it must go
Your life too short
Holding and keeping
Forever to be
Holding and keeping
Stay with me
Strange way it is gone
Unable, to believe
Hurt, hurt is the bare truth
My life outliving yours
Reminder of time
Your life too short
Despair, the bare truth
Your life before mine
Strange way it must go
Your life too short
Holding and keeping
Forever to be
Holding and keeping
Stay with me


8. Willfull

Will I ever be, who you want me to be
Will I ever want, what you want me to want
Am I going to ever be like you
Why is it to be, that I can't be me
I can do just fine, I will be just fine,
without you here with me
I will probably live, live a richer life
without your good advice
Nothing you can say to change my feelings
Nothing you can do to change my actions
Got to prove to live, got to live to prove
I know how you must feel
Is it just too much? It is all too much
I want to be me
You should be me, then you will see
It is not easy
I want to be me