The River Different Ways to be Haunted (demo) 1. A Close Study The mourners bow their heads But I am not a part Of their flow in the evening rain Despite how hard I try I'm left just to be Lonely and afraid My sober thoughts are there I have kept them away, A silence through the glass It's colder when you're here Your vanity makes me bleed Delusions never pass Your silence helps me pull away I push you further from my thoughts You may be pleased with how I feel But a friend is all I sought The days just blend into a whole, The pale skies just seem to grow I have so much to give, More than you'll ever know My useless pulse is through My hope is given away, My trust has been misplaced I struggle through the haze If you simply saw my face I'd find a way to stay We didn't speak at all Of how we felt, It doesn't matter now And so you're gone No one seems to want Me to be around Losing myself In nowhere, Away from your eyes But what do you care If I'm not here Just tell me why 2. White Library With you, with me, it's hard to see I'll try anyway I claw the sky, I wonder why Why me, today? Your affinity fooled me twice I'm flattered you feel me But my knowledge as absence fell My importance just can't be You re-open my angry wounds Stolen to my haven, This rush of blood was far too soon You said you were mistaken And it'll be long, so early too Broke the aura we share My gilded face won't look at you But for once, I cared In your eyes, in your arms I'll drown, but be safe from harm I used to love, I used to care But now, I'm drifting nowhere It's been so clear, it feels a while Reflected in your smile, So come with me and help me write The pages of my white library Not felt this way before You said, but I'm not sure If you even felt at all I found you so divine, You said that you were mine But then you let me fall I'm wrong this time... 3. Broken Window Alone I awoke to the sound of the rain Can't you leave me? The constant tapping at my window pane So eager to see I watch the sky behind broken glass The colours so rusted and hued Am I transparent, alone in my haze? My thoughts are of you I turned away from your gaze And disappeared in the crowd, Your eyes sought, but couldn't find I don't want to be found Is it so hard to believe in myself? I'm just a blur, My face is blank to the outside world To avoid being hurt I only speak when I'm spoken about So empty I feel, If I'm to drown I will drown all alone It's not a big deal I turned away from your gaze And disappeared in the crowd, Your eyes sought, but couldn't find I don't want to be found