Suicidal Tendencies How Will I Laugh Tomorrow When I Can't Even Smile Today? - Trip at the brain 4:32 - Hearing voices 4:14 - Pledge your allegiance 4:32 - How will I laugh tomorrow 6:45 - The miracle 5:29 - Suicyco mania 5:29 - Surf and slam 2:52 - If I don't wake up 4:54 - Sorry ?! 3:48 - One too many times 3:13 - The feeling's back 4:04 "TRIP AT THE BRAIN" I gotta gotta take a trip, gotta take a trip out of this place I gotta gotta get away, get away from the human race I don't know what I'll see, don't even know what I'll find I don't know what to pack, never been to a trip at the mind Trip at the brain. Trip at the brain. Trip at the brain Do you know what I'm saying? Trip at the brain. Trip at the brain. Trip at the brain Well I'm going insane I took a wrong turn and ended up at my heart I t could barely even pump no blood it was so thrashed and torn apart Thank it for working overtime in pain and misery Then I set back on the trail, headed for my destiny Fly with me Flying free Tripping You must be tripping Trip, trip, tripping Ya ya ya ya you're tripping I cannot stop this trip, I forgot to pack the brakes Crashed straight into a concrete wall of my mistakes Ended up in a cemetary of a thousand wasted days But that's alright with me, cause that's where most of my memories lay "HEARING VOICES" I got home kind of late last night My mind wasn't clear, but I could tell something wasn't right So silent I could hear my heart pump But then I heard a sound that made me jump I tried to get real brave, tried to look around I tried to find out where came that sound The re I looked, the less I could see But the voices keep calling, calling out to me I hear voices-when I'm all alone Hearing voices-but there's nobody home Hear the voices-could it be they're calling out to me Hearing voices-I look, why can't I see I hear voices-can't stop those voices It happened again-the very next day I still couldn't understand what they were trying to say Could only get the courage to open up one eye Couldn't see nothing, but the voices they don't lie I searched and searched but not a soul I found Pretty damn sure no one was around The more I looked the less I could see Then I realized the voices were calling from me Are they demons-or are they angels or am I crazy Now the voices I start to understand They have to do with the master plan You think about what you'd do Cause one day the voices will be calling out to you The voices I hear now I know are true They come not from one but they come from two The real point is what I'm missing From which voice will I listen I hear voices Hearing voices Do you hear the voices? Can't stop the voices "PLEDGE YOUR ALLEGIANCE" ST ST ST ST ST ST ST ST I never said I don't like religion-I just don't like TV You say I got a bad attitude-around you that comes naturally You say I need more compassion-I can forgive, I just can't forget You say control my temper-but when I feel like shit, I feel like shit Cause I was born to be-ST And I'll always be-ST Don't get down on me-ST Cause I'm down OG-ST Not afraid to die-ST Just you promise me-ST Yo got to carry on-ST You gotta carry on-ST Why can't I ask any questions if what you say is true Am I supposed to believe everything-or just everything said by you? And how can you call me stupid-when you don't understand what I say And how can you call me evil-have you spoken to God today- And what did He say? As long as your heart beats-pledge your allegiance You can call me ugly-but I still dress the way I choose How you gonna judge me-you've never taken a walk in my shoes Why don't you ever trust me when I'm smiling-is it a sin to have fun? And why should I repent when there's nothin' wrong with anyt- hing that I've done Pledge your allegiance Suicidal Suicidal Suicidal "HOW WILL I LAUGH TOMMOROW" Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down I cry for help but no one's around Silently screaming I bang my head against the wall It seems like no one cares at all Always an emotion, but how can I explain How can I explain Kind of like the scent of a rose With words I can't explain The same with my pain Caught up in emotion-Goes over my head Goes over my head Sometimes I got to think to myself is this life or death Am I living or am I dead The clock keeps ticking but nothing else seems to change Problems never solved, just rearranged And when I think about all the times that I've had So few good-So many bad I search for personality and I look for things I can not see Love and peace flash through my mind Pain and hate are all I find Find no hope in nothing new Never had a dream come true Lies and hate and agony Thru my eyes that's all I see If I'm gonna cry Will you wipe away my tears? If I'm gonna die Lord please take away my fear Before I drown in sorrow Last thing that I'll say How will I laugh tommorow If I can't even smile today Today today--when I can't even smile today Today today--when I can't even smile today How will I laugh tommorow--when I can't even smile today How will I laugh tommorow--when I can't even smile today "THE MIRACLE" I sailed forever, I sailed so far, and now I know just what the consequences are I laughed out loudy, while I cried inside But I didn't haave the strength to say enough of this ride Like a fool-I believed in a miracle I wanted to forget, of what I'm not sure But I found an answer-it seemed to be a perfect cure Controlled my actions, controlled my thoughts Controlled my feelings, and now I feel my body rot-like a fool I believed in the miracle Twisting and I'm turning-freezing then I'm burning Laughing then I'm crying-am I living or am I dying Swearing then I'm praying-don't even know what I'm saying Happy then so sad-forgiving then so mad Do you still, do you still believe, do you still believe in, Do you still believe in miracles? Pushing then pulling-who am I fooling A friend then a foe-do I really even know? Love and then hate Peace then at war-but what am I fighting for And you always try to Keep me-oh so sleepy So I can't realize-that it's all lies And the more it takes hold of me-the less chance that I'll ever be free And even though I don't believe-it's so hard to leave-a mira- cle-a miracle Waiting-always hesitating-for that perfect day-that day was yesterday And the more you're gonna wait-the more of a chance that it will be too late How can you afford to wait, you just can't afford to wait I shed a tear I won't deny it, but just one tear I already cried it And now you'll see me cry no more, don't even know what I was crying for "IF I DON'T WAKE UP" Why do I wake up in the morning-nothing's changed since the day of my birth Why do I wake up in the morning-I make no difference on this earth Strength has left-has to be-something has died inside of me If I don't wake up in the morning-at my funeral would anyone care If I don't wake up in the morning-would anyone even be there You can put me down-you can put me out, you can try to ignore But now you're gonna hear me when I shout WAKE UP Why should I wake up in the morning-it be just another wasted day Why should I wake up in the morning-don't do nothing right anyway That was then-not anymore-now I go blasting out the door I'm gonna wake up in the morning-I'll prove you wrong I will not fail I'm gonna wake up in the morning-I'm gonna blaze a brand new trail Might not be smart, but if I'm strong I know for sure no one ever will prove me wrong "SORRY?!" Seems like such a long time ago, but I don't know if I'm ever gonna let her go. I remember the first time that I met her, I knew she was the one. There couldn't be anybody better. Well, I was lost when I looked in her eyes Well those eyes, those eyes, they made me realize... Sorry...I didn't know what was to be Sorry...I could not see Sorry...Lord how could this be Sorry...It's raining down on me Well, I know it sounds crazy to say. But, in everything I do, I think about that day. Last time I talked to her was on the telepho- ne. She said I know it's been a while, but I don't feel like being alone. I slammed down the phone on the last thing I'd hear her say. Now it's getting harder to live with it every day and I pray, I pray that you can hear me say Sorry...I could not see Sorry...It don't seem fair to me Sorry...Lord, how could this be Sorry...It's raining right down on me Not a day goes by when I do not sit and wonder why this had to be. It don't seem fair to me. No no, it don't seem fair to me. The more I wish and pray, the more it seems I waste away. But it would mean oh so much if I could just reach out and our hands would touch and if I'd just go back again and do it all over it'd have a happy end. I know exactly the way I would start. I'd send her a letter straight from my heart. It doesn't seem fair, why can't I forgive. She was so strung out, she didn't even have a chance to live and it's oh so hard to forgive. Sometimes people think I don't know what to say because I'm looking out in space, but inside I'm praying and I pray, I pray, I pray, pray, pray and then I think about the day she died. About that night and in the morning. I cry cry cry and I try, I try to understand Sorry...I didn't know what was to be Sorry...It don't seem fair to me Sorry...Lord I'll always be Sorry...She died but it's killing me Wondering about that time when it'll be my day And I wonder what I'll do and what she'll say and if I'll have the courage to stay And I'll start by looking her straight in the eye and telling her that I'm Sorry "ONE TOO MANY TIMES" Never good at talking, so many things I couldn't say But those thoughts never went away And I'm sure you remember, said that all I wanted was sympa- thy, Now add this to your memory Too many times-I felt so sad and lonely Too many times-I needed someone there Too many times-I tried to tell you something Too many times-It seemed like no one cared And I don't like asking-and it's not easy to say... I never learned how to pray So if you have a moment it means so much to me oh can't you see... If you'd just say a prayer for me Too many times-I didn't even have a second Too many times-you thought I was much too strong Too many times-you said the feeling wouldn't last forever Too many times-I proved you so damn wrong Saw the changes-thought they'd go away-do you still remember that day Can't really fault you-only have myself to blame... But do you still feel the same Do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya? But I waited so long-for someone to take my hand, and say they understand And I waited so long-for someone to show the way-to make a better day and I waited so long-for someone to spare a kiss for the love I miss And I waited so long-for you to looke me in the eye And say it's worth another try But yo keep me waiting-waiting-too many times You keep me waiting, one too many, one too many, one too many times, Too many times One too many one too many one too many times too many times Can't you see yo keep me waiting-one too many times "THE FEELING'S BACK" I wrote a letter just the other day to nobody in particular But if anyone were to read a bit-they'd think I was a bit peculiar But it matters not what they think of me, it's only what I know is real And so all that's left that matters now-is that the feeling's back The feeling's back and you just can't stop it The feeling's back and you just can't stop it I fought a thousand times-I never knew the meaning of the word fear Till that one day when I stood alone-staring straight into the mirror It's not a pretty sight-and even worse it's so hard to face Until I realize I'm the only one that put me in this place I'm gonna breathe I'm gonna live-that's right-nothing's gonna stop me I7m gonna shout I'm gonna scream-that's right-nothing's gonna stop me I'm gonna run I'm gonna fly-that's right-nothing's gonna stop me I'm gonna fight I'm gonna win-that's right-nothing's gonna stop me Nothing's gonna stop me, nothing's gonna stop me now... Cause the feeling's back and you gotta love the feeling I dug my hole too deep-I couldn't admit, I didn't know when to stop But you can only dig your hole six feet until the dirt comes back on top I've got a long way left to climb but I'll still look you straight in the eye And I can honestly say I'll never quit-not even on the day I die