Harakiri For The Sky M�re 1. I, Pallbearer The view outside my window changed a lot since I was a child Like all the years we buried, vanishing forever Cause also grief is just love with no place to go Like all the years we buried, this place is death There's a thing you should know about me I am and have always been this deeply sad man So, I am both, laughing and crying at the same time And still trying to discover how that could be I'm pretty sure growing old will kill me Slowly, but steadily, in two different ways As I'm still the one with the saddest smile I hate being bipolar, it's fucking awesome The firstborn died by his own hands My oldest friend found a rope that bore And I know I'll definitely also not die By staring out in the pouring rain Nobody ever tells you that emptiness weighs most When there's a void inside that can't be filled Cause it's not a single stab wound that kills me It's a thousand paper cuts on every single day The heart dies a slow death And all our dreams dash fast But I wonder if you changed your minds The moment you knew you'd die And I'm totally aware that my pain Is nothing when compared to yours But cleaning out your apartment Was way harder than your funeral One more psychosis then I am also finally done Cause the more I sleep, the less I dream And then at night I drink and clean my gun It's me who should be dead, not you... 2. Sing for the Damage We've Done It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If I truly miss what I once called home It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If this truly was my longest way home So, sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do Cause with you at my side I will never be lost As my apathy is death Our apathy is death But with you at my side I will always be lost As my apathy is death Your apathy is death You can take my word I wish I would have followed you You can take my word I wish I could have followed you And so we’ll witness how the last days will come and stay And so we witnessed when the last days came and stayed So, drink from the night itself The night no one came home Drink from the night itself But remember me as a time of day Cause you not understanding my silence Makes you also deaf to my words Cause every word has consequences And every silence seems to have too Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do 3. Us Against December Skies What if I were smiling? And falling into your arms? Would you see then? What I can see now? Tell me about the old days Us against December skies I’ve spent my happiest days here Carry me forever in your heart Now I’m standing here alone In the street where we once met I am sadder than I’ve ever been But still glad you’re doing well And I hope even when I’m gone Your smile will never leave your face And I am sadder than I’ve ever been But still glad you’re doing well Words like stones Thrown into my face Cut your name into me And throw me off a bridge Words like stones Thrown into my face Cut our names into me And throw me off a bridge And so I smiled at you If I never shed a tear for you Cause alone from the heart You can touch the sky Don’t think of me too often I don’t want you to get sad I think I’ll miss you forever Like the sun the stars in morning skies Words like stones Thrown into my face Cut your name into me And throw me off a bridge Words like stones Thrown into my face Cut our names into me And throw me off a bridge What if I were smiling? And falling into your arms? Would you see then? What I can see now? So, this was us my dear Us against December skies I’ve spent my happiest days here Carry us forever in your heart 4. I'm All About the Dusk Leave for the night And paint the stars Leave for the night Collecting scars Remember me? I’m back and I missed you The dead travel fast Meet me above the pines Where I’ll become a crow Resting in the crowns of trees Collecting their souls my dear The souls of the people I once loved My whole life’s an uprising One burial after another Now would you wear this crown for me? This diadem of dead stars?! Cause I’ve become the thorns in my crown Now let me grow your wounded king Collecting the names of my loved ones As scars carved to my chest Living in the memory of a love that died Once smashed to pieces in the still of a night Living for the memory of a love that died Still searching for stars in a cloudy and rainy night And we stray through infinite nothing Always haunted by our deadweight dreams And it feels and seems as though Something’s still gnawing at my heart Also, the sadness is meant to last forever And darkness soon will become salvation Never underestimate the allure of darkness Cause even the purest of hearts are drawn to it I can’t leave the night Cause night smells different When the day comes close Reaches out for my hand But I can’t leave the night I’m all about the dusk And a life that’s always longing Take me far beyond the stars Where my heart was always longing I belong to twilight and mist And always did so I’m back and I missed you I’m all about the dusk I’m all about the dusk Leave for the night and paint the stars Leave for the night, keep drowning the light For my life that’s always doubting For my heart that’s always doubting For my doubting heart 5. Three Empty Words There was a poem called “Loss” once carved into stones It had three words, but the poet scratched them out It was three empty words that once dug his grave It was three empty words that once bled him dry I know some of us get lost in the fire But some of us are built from it Get to learn to embrace the storms Cause without rain nothing grows Not all storms come to disrupt your life Some just approach to clear your path No, I never wished you rain my dear I always wished you the beauty of storms Horizon - Tempest Let’s drink on our mistakes Let’s drink on these old memories Let’s get lost in the storms Let’s get lost in our fire Let’s drink Forget You know some men can’t be negotiated or reasoned with Cause some of ‘em just want to watch the world burn That’s why I’ll never rise from the ashes my dear Cause I am them, I’m the whole fucking fire I know we must have our hearts broken sometimes Cause having them broken also means we tried for something I know a ship’s safe in a harbour, but that’s not what it’s built for We must get broken sometimes, cause that is how the light gets in …that is how the light get’s in… Let’s drink on our mistakes Let’s drink on these old memories Let’s get lost in the storms Let’s get lost in our fire And I’ll keep these songs in mind For funerals yet to come As my memories will fade But wounds will still remain And I wish I also knew which songs Remind other people of me You too used to be about music And the songs that carried us …through sleepless nights... You may think I write about my own misery But I’m really writing about yours You are living in a world of fire and brimstone Just not to die from the cold inside Sometimes we think we are keeping a secret But sometimes that secret eventually keeps us That’s why we give flowers mostly to the dead Cause regret is way stronger than our gratitude There is a poem called “distress” carved into my chest It too had three words, but the poet scratched them out It was three empty words that dug my grave It’s three empty words that bled me dry And I’ll keep these songs in mind For funerals yet to come As my memories will fade But wounds will still remain And I wish I also knew which songs Remind other people of me You too used to be about music And the songs that carried us …through sleepless nights.. 6. --- Disk Two --- 7. Once upon a Winter To become spring, accept the risk of winter To become presence, accept the risk of absence We are lost in this city, where we shouldn’t be at all Where we searched for flowers, and found nothing but snow It’s this city of tears That has gone into mourning Still beating with my heart But with undercurrent of woe I belong to the mountains And always did so I belong to the mountains And always will do They were my first love Where they end, I begin Bury me deep inside their womb The only place I ever felt home Cause home is not just the place where I was born Also, the place where I want to get buried The place beyond the pines where distance has no meaning Where we still sing those old songs that remind us of our fall (04:36) We are torn between nostalgia for the familiar And an urge for the foreign and strange We are tied to bridges that cave in or burn Sometimes we are homesick most for places we’ve never known If only the sea was merciful Wash me away to the silencing shores If only the sea was merciful As merciful as a morning in winter My dear, you can cut all the flowers But you can’t keep spring from rising It’s strange why autumns is so beautiful Yet everything starves, everything dies …everything dies… Cause home is not just the place where I was born Also, the place where I want to get buried The place beyond the pines where distance has no meaning Where we still sing those old songs that remind us of our fall Cause though I’m often in the depths of misery There’s still calmness, there’s still music inside me Just wish Decembers would wipe memories away Like they mercilessly wiped away the last years If only the sea was merciful Wash me away to the silencing shores If only the sea was merciful As merciful as a morning in winter 8. And Oceans Between Us You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer And year by year I’m fading away You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you I need to be someone different I need to be somewhere different But who shall we become my dear When there’s nothing left to love Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore It’s not love It’s nostalgia And it hurts to remember how close we once were But at some point in your life you have to realize That some people may stay in your heart But some just can’t stay in your life So I took away from me what I loved most My memories and all the pictures of you I can’t just tell you what this song’s all about But basically, it’s about everything that separates us You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you Watch me fade away Now drink after drink, line after line I poison myself, I poison my heart As there is something deep inside Something that I need to kill Cause one of the hardest things You’ll ever have to bear my dear Is to grieve the loss of a beloved person That is indeed still alive Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore The weight of the world is love Under the burden of solitude Under the incubus of dissatisfaction The weight, the only weight we carry Is love Is love Is love 9. Silver Needle // Golden Dawn You said “for better or worse” This is my worst, but I’m getting better You just need to give me a chance A chance to get better, one day… Cause the “what never was” And the “what could’ve been” Seems to mean so much more to me Than anything else these days My heart beats to fast This life will kill me Your heart beats to fast This life will kill us Unravel the rope my dear So we can learn from its duty Let it take my guilt away So I can carry your pain Too weak is my blood To handle all that whiskey Too weak are my veins To carry so much smack and wine Too weak are my hands To knot a tight rope Too weak am I To carry on As the value of old wounds, you don’t know the pain of The pain that I know, but you never testified Brought me to think suicide with pills isn’t all to radical But isn’t suicide itself already radical enough? Did you know my dear The chance is high We’ve already been To the place of our death That’s why I’ll die a sunny day But will get buried at night We’ll die a sunny day But get buried at night I’ll load up guns In my dreams you are mine all the time The hands that used to hold me I always wanted to see your name in lights Just in the case we’ll never meet again But in my dreams, you were mine all the time And as they see us, they’ll confess: They died doing something they wanted to In a place they chose to be And my love is not weather So it will never change Now let us leave my dear I’ll rehash the smack Our fears are excruciating But therein lies the answer At least believe in something Even if it means sacrificing everything 10. Time Is a Ghost All those who were seen dancing Were thought to be insane By those who could not hear the music Who couldn’t hear the silence sing Every sleepless night – Feels like end times Every morning wide awake – Feels like end times Every laugther died away – Feels like end times Every walk in the sun – Feels like end times I’m tired of being on the road Lonely as a sparrow in rain All its pain, like pieces of glass In my head all the time I’m so tired of all the things That whyever won’t kill me Just make me stronger Grand a bond, then break it These are the past upon stories Our unsettling death letters Now there’s nothing left to burn Let’s set ourselves on fire All these people tell me, the life I live is a brave one But fuck, I’m really just running away from the past Our lives are impressive graveyards of buried hopes Where we buried them like our dead, but far too shallow Hope is but mental illness I once was blind, but now I see Time is but an abyss Profound as a thousand nights The past doesn’t exist Nor does the future Time is but a ghost We are just moment after moment Every sleepless night – Feels like end times Every slug of whiskey – Feels like end times Every hasty goodbye – Feels like end times And every line I write – It just feels like end times I still got fire inside But my heart is too cold I lost something I never had But yet it hurts as bad Cause those who were seen dancing Were thought to be insane By those who could not hear the music Who couldn’t hear the silence sing 11. Song to Say Goodbye (Placebo cover) You are one of God's mistakes, You crying, tragic waste of skin, I'm well aware of how it aches , And you still won't let me in. Now I'm breaking down your door, To try and save your swollen face , Though I don't like you anymore, You lying, trying waste of space.. Before our innocence was lost, You were always one of those , Blessed with lucky sevens , And the voice that made me cry . My Oh My. You were mother nature's son , Someone to whom I could relate , Your needle and your damage done, Remains a sordid twist of fate. Now I'm trying to wake you up , To pull you from the liquid sky , Coz if I don't we'll both end up , With just your song to say goodbye. My Oh My. A song to say goodbye, A song to say goodbye , A song to say... Before our innocence was lost, You were always one of those, Blessed with lucky sevens, And the voice that made me cry. It's a song to say goodbye.