\ My Shameful The Return to Nothing This Same Grey Light days go by nothing changes, nothing moves this same grey light fade in, fade out from here dust settles on me the light has gone from here but the dust still remains years go by nothing changes, nothing moves I have been here for far too long dust settles ashes fall on me this day has gone like so many before in a dusty haze there is no life here slow decay all crumbles down I have been here for nothing else remains fade in, fade out from here dust settles on me on me, on my hands ashes fall down on me Days Grow Darker cold is the morning light these days the days do grow darker each day it feels like the sun itself is dying will it still turn to good... ...in the end? the world is sinking into the night the light is fading the night has come the world is sinking into ever night the light is dying swallowed by dark sink deeper still into this darkest of all nights oblivion is calling out for me and I close these eyes to dream ...to dream of eternity I'm not afraid! I'm not afraid... I'm not afraid of tomorrow I'm not afraid, no more I'm not afraid to sleep now I'm not afraid, no more I held my head high all was finally understood tomorrow will never come I will sleep away this time No Dawn the end is here the earth burns now from within stars are falling now sea is boiling blood the end is here and all we've done fore nothing hope died long time ago I see your children burning all turned to ash in this fiery storm the world is burning now the time of men will end there is nothing to be done just sit down and wait for darkness at the end world turned to black and the few, scared, burnt and broken walk among the fields of ash there will be no new dawn the mankind has fallen down the end is here! The Return to Nothing dig deeper deeper than ever before dig deeper into the nightblack soil a cool weight laid down upon me an eternal sleep awaits now feel the weight grind me down to become part of the earth a slow process is starting all the voices I still do hear let me be here now let me sleep...let me sleep dig deeper bury myself deep in the earth dig deeper beneath where the earth still calls ...for me no light in here no sun hurts my eyes no noise in here all is silent, all is calm It Can't Get Worse seeing myself standing here, naked and broken again I feel shamed, but cannot stop myself like a beaten dog I came back for more do I need the pain this much to feel alive words became useless, no need to speak no more. stale remarks of my own state turned to haunt my waking. so long have I fallen fallen from disgrace could I say that it has been better than this that it used to be better than it ever will be or have I always thread through this same I don't fear tomorrow it can't be any worse than today and all the days before when I hit the bottom... ...again how did I lose myself amidst all this pain all the hate kept fueling me on all the memories of pain and betray and I will come for more again Silent empty words flow from me the truth hides between the lies lies no one wrote down gone with the words are the lies so silent have these words become fighting to get out, to scream out of me so empty have these words become drained of all meaning nothing left to say words are gone now nothing left to say truth will die with me no one will hear this again no one will know what I had to say gone with my breath it all is, (gone from here) no more words to say (no lies, no truths, nothing) nothing left to say Just One listen to the song of a thousand hurting to the lullabies of a million screaming but the pain it keeps on burning on and on till the silence of the night leaves us dreaming but after all it is just one man dying where the pain shines like the sun on the bed of thorns all has become but pain but still you whisper lies... ...of peace coming lies!!! ...of peace coming lies!!! the sir has become fire that I swallow down no water to put it out but all in all can it get any worse than this but still you whisper your lies... Return (instrumental)