Shadecrown
			  Riven

1. Not Until the End

Relentless one
Now beaten by time
The strongest one
has now fallen into eternal sleep

Why do we lie to ourselves
We are all...
We are all born to die

"You don't know what you really have
until it's gone
You don't know how lost you really are
Not until the end"

I know now it's too late
Too much left unsaid
Should have been there
before the end of days

I know now it's too late
Too much left undone
In times of loss
we realize how much we had

You feared
Feared to let go
You feared
Feared to close your eyes
for one last time

When all these fears unite
In despair
even the purest heart
is drawn to shadows


2. Lifelong Dying

Yet another glass in front of me
Filthy, half empty, my twisted way
to enjoyable self-destruction

Yet another dawn
that I don't want to see
Sore I wake, torn wide open
Deep in the ever growing sea
Slowly drowning in poisonous tears

What the hell am I doing here?
Driven by excruciating guilt
Worthless, running in circles
Sacrificed too much for solace

All the time just numbing myself
from the pain
still every day dying a little
I wither slowly
I wither slowly

Longing for years
that were once never lived
I've come too far
to turn back now

Nothing can be undone
My heart sank deep
In this lightless tide
I wither slowly


3. Rain's Edge

See you through downpours
We are not the same
Feel you from the edge of rain
I see it now

You cannot live here
where I feel alive
where momentary pain
reminds me that I'm still alive

Yet I don't want to live there
where life is at a standstill
where only part of me feels alive
Where it never rains

So I stay here on the edge of rain
and hope that someday
these worlds will unite

See you through downpours
We're not the same
Feel you from the edge
of constant rain

I see it now
the difference between us
I concede it now
We are not the same

Time has come to lay down these
scarred hearts to rest

It is time to say goodbye
Now we have to go there
where we feel at home

You cannot live here
where I feel alive
You cannot live here
It's time to say goodbye


4. The Ghost I Mourn

Farewell
I know I can live on my own
but can I ever let go of this sorrow
that is running through my veins

It's in my blood
The ghost I mourn

Lost the one
I thought it all was real
Illusion faded
Now you're dead to me
but this hurt still stubbornly remains
Still I have to bear
the phantom pain
It's in my blood
The ghost I mourn

Under the northern lights
On moonlit frost
alone I roam
Born with a heavy heart
Can't believe how hard this
all came down on me


5. Incomplete

I struggle with these thoughts
of not being enough
Feeling incomplete

I've begun to see
I am not as stable
as I thought I was

All these thoughts
enslaved by agony, by misery
All these thoughts
All these unspoken words
came out screaming

Do we really know each other
or just pretend
Or does it even matter
when being yourself is not enough

Frailty, fall, remorse
You have seen the most of me
My past, highs and lows

There's so little left
to descry in me
More than this
I can't give

All these thoughts
enslaved by agony, by misery
All these thoughts
All these unspoken words
came out screaming

I struggle with these thoughts
of not being enough
Feeling incomplete

More than this
I cannot give
This is what I am
This is what I will be
Endlessly incomplete

All these thoughts
enslaved by agony
All these unspoken words
came out screaming

I struggle with these thoughts
of not being enough
Feeling incomplete


6. Hate Reflected

It's clear what you've done
and for that I despise you
After years I thought I knew you
I thought I knew you

This world is cruel as hell
for those who fear to be themselves
After years I thought I knew you
but still you are like a stranger to me

You're better off alone
so you can hurt only yourself
See how low you can go

I see you in the mirror
A man with raging eyes
A reflection of a hollow heart
I see me, that is me I hate

It was so damn easy to crush
every little fragment of joy
In the blink of an eye
dreams became unreachable

I'm better off alone
so I can hurt only myself
See how low I can go

I see myself in the mirror
A man with raging eyes
A reflection of a hollow heart
I see me, that is me I hate


7. Divided

This so called life-long journey
has ended too soon
One life divided in two

My life changed too fast
Despite all I have survived
this time I had to hide

I had to hide myself from reality
Here I can forget
the world you're living in
But can I return
when time starts to heal?

This so called life-long journey
has ended too soon
One life divided in two
Cannot take this life as it is
One world divided in two

As the world turned
I escaped to another
Into another world
As the world turned
I had to hide myself in delusion

At a crossroads
we had to choose
Either painless road to nowhere
or painful road to unknown
We followed our hearts
to passage never seen

Yet I know
in time I'll get lost again
In time life will
divide my world anew

One world divided in two


8. Traces

Today this silence is too loud
The light of dawn too bright
The air I breathe too cold
The longing way too close

Sometimes I just want to forget
even though I shouldn't regret anything
Some things can never be forgotten
The deepest traces of the past

Some things can never be forgotten
No one knows how hard I've tried
Somehow I always
come across these scars

Today memories are too clear
Those past mistakes too obvious
Despair way too near
Heart torn into pieces