Shadecrown Solitarian 1. The Awakening Once again I'm tormented by these poisonous thoughts, by a thousand shadows that lurk in the deep, in the ocean of mistrust I just want to disappear I despise myself right now but there's nothing I can do It has taken control Never wanted this to be this way I have lost myself again Forgotten sorrows, anger and despair Suddenly I recall it all too well Silenced echoes of a past life I've lost myself again Years have come and gone I have seen too much Seasons change Now I remember way too much Forgotten sorrows, anger and despair Suddenly I recall it all too well Silenced echoes of a past life I've lost myself Forgotten sorrows, anger and despair Suddenly I recall it all too well Silenced echoes of a past life I've lost myself again I'm still the one you know I'm still the one you know I'm still the one you know I'm still the one you know Yes, I am still the one you know but something wicked lives inside of me Beyond all light It slept beneath the frost Beyond all light Beyond all light It slept beneath the frost Beyond all light It slept inside of me Now it's awake It is awake It is awake The monster inside me 2. Dark Heart Replica Growing up beside you With affliction Without affection You walked beside me Shadowed my every thought Shadowed my every thought Your emotions became mine Your words became mine Your hate became mine Your pitch-black heart became my own Growing cold beside you You showed me how to be just like you That is what I never wanted Dark heart replica Living through the one I hate The life I never wanted Growing cold beside you You showed me how to be just like you That is what I never wanted Dark heart replica Your emotions became mine Your words became my own Your hate became mine Your pitch-black heart became my own 3. Momentary Trails Who will remember me when I drift down the river of time Alone, forsaken Who will remember me When I become a shadow of my former self, when life goes on without me For this life is temporary Momentary are the trails we leave behind No one will remember my worthless deeds, my pathetic life Yes I know I should have lived my life to the fullest But at the time I couldn't care less Now it might be too late to start over, to think clearly which path to take Yet still I crave one more, one more drink to ease my misery Still I crave one more, Always one more Who will remember me when I drown in the river of time Alone, forsaken For this life is temporary Momentary are the trails we leave behind No one will remember my worthless deeds, my pathetic life For this life is temporary Momentary are the trails we leave behind No one will remember my worthless deeds, my pathetic life 4. Slivers Manipulate - Break us down - Deceive Fake your affection Keep our wounds wide open You know how You are the sickness among us You live just to tear us apart just to tear us apart Hate! Hate! Hate! Betray - Let us down Tear our wounds wide open Your promise of change means nothing to us You are the sickness among us You live just to tear us apart The damage is done We crawled through the slivers of shattered lives Through broken wills Through fragments of hope The damage is done but we survived As long as we live we'll go on But we will never forget, never forgive We will never forget We will never forgive You are not the one you pretended to be Emotions so raw Sense of compassion lost in callous heart The damage is done We crawled through the slivers of shattered lives Through broken wills Through fragments of hope The damage is done but we survived As long as we live we'll go on But we will never forget, never forgive 5. The Loss Caressing your lifeless skin Just trying to let go In the gentle light of dusk You left this world You left this world too soon I will always miss you here where I am nothing without you Living in the past Lying in this lightless void Writhing in agony Just trying to survive another hour, another day How can I do this to myself? I stopped living since I lost you I am not strong enough to handle this all alone I'm giving up on life We all lose each other one way or another But what to do when it’s all too much? When everything falls apart We all lose each other one way or another But what to do when it’s all too much? How can I do this to myself? I stopped living since I lost you I am not strong enough to handle this all alone I'm giving up on life 6. Aeon's Still Yesterday I felt like living forever but today my world stood still Why do I have to leave this world so soon My whole life stood still Why me, why now A moment ago I felt like living forever but today my world collapsed Why do I have to leave this world so soon My whole life stood still Why me, why now In solitude I ponder which road should I take because everything in my life went so wrong What the hell should I do Should I carry on and slowly wither away What the hell should I do Should I end this all right now I'm so afraid I feel despair, anger and pain I feel totally lost What the hell should I do Should I carry on and slowly wither away What the hell should I do Should I end this all right now Why do I have to leave this world so soon My whole life stood still Why me Why do I have to leave this world so soon My whole life stood still Why me, why now 7. Crestfallen I am the ghost in the ruins Alone in the well of pain Crushed in desire's embrace Heart within winds so cold The world came crashing down This all is much more than I can take I'm in too deep Achieved nothing worthwhile in life For my emotions are concealed in shadows I'm not even sure what it means to feel alive but it must feel better than this Lonely heart beneath the frost Covered in countless scars I will never be the same to heal from this is to die Achieved nothing worthwhile in life For my emotions are concealed in shadows I'm not even sure what it means to feel alive but it must feel better than this Achieved so little I was never truly alive Never achieved my dreams I'm in too deep Achieved nothing worthwhile in life For my emotions are concealed in shadows I'm not even sure what it means to feel alive but it must feel better than this 8. Solitarian Soothing morning light deprived by the dark of years In loveless embrace Lived a dying dream Disappeared in the deep waters Walked this road a thousand times So much time I've thrown away Once again it's time to bid farewell From now on I'll walk alone I will walk alone I will walk alone For way too long I withered in your shadow As tears washed clean all of my thoughts I knew I had to leave Walked this road a thousand times So much time I've thrown away Once again it's time to bid farewell From now on I'll walk alone I will walk alone (Pt.2 - Alone) Burdened by loneliness Vespertine longing Tide left me here torn where despair runs deep Now I cast no shadow Suffocate you no more Learning to live this way Alone one day at a time Now I cast no shadow Learning to live this way Alone one day at a time I will walk alone (x2) I have learned to live in silence you left behind I am changing still but now only for myself Now I cast no shadow Suffocate you no more Learning to live this way Alone one day at a time Now I cast no shadow Learning to live this way Alone one day at a time I will walk alone (Pt.3 - Scarred) I remember your every disdainful smile I remember your every made-up reason to hate, every lie In the heart of the sea of agonies With each passing year I drift further from the shore Why am I missed now when I'm too far away? I remember every futile tear I remember every hollow word I remember how you left me, how you left me with these scars In the heart of the sea of agonies With each passing year I drift further from the shore Why am I missed now when I'm too far away? (Pt.4 - Healing) Now it's time to forget, time to wait for the skies to clear I am on my own From now on I will walk alone Sometimes I miss the days when I had a heart so pure I got everything but nothing I could keep Nothing (Pt.5 - Closure) Got back on my feet but now I'm falling again Life didn't give me a second chance Looking back on my life How blind have I been? Rushed through the years Starving in an empty core Soon I wither away Soon I wither away Solitarian I am Soon I wither away Solitarian I am Alone I cease to exist Solitarian I am Soon I wither away Solitarian I am Alone I cease to exist