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			   Solitude

1. Solitude MMXIII

38 saturnal wars
Still the same old never-ending ache
Forever this solitude going on
Forever alone

Kolmekymmentäyksi mustan linnun kehää
Kahdeksan siiveniskua vaille seitsemää
Kunnes taas sukeltaa pimeään
Olemassaolon hämärään

So sick and tired of this world
This promised land of decadence
So sick and tired of this life
This never-ending misery
Endless streams of empty shells
Towards the gates of nothingness

Kun usva nielee syksyn tulta
Livun toiseen maailmaan
Täällä olen vain kuori
Jota eksynyt aave asuttaa

Flaming chalice of the golden horizon
Fumes of the bitter wine of age
Burns within revealing the true form
Rarely witnessed by the human eye


2. Cold Numbness

Walking again in the pale morning
With this gnawing emptiness

Am I awake or still asleep?
Lost in twilight
Release me from this suffering
Self-inflicted loneliness
Sorrow

Nothing will be
Only shades of the past
Haunting me

Horrors and chills of a self-inflicted war
Einsamkeit, Leere
Sorrows and kills of self-inflicted war

Scratch marks on these desecrated walls
Sheltering my isolated mind
As the sparks of hope die under a rain of tears
Everything flowing into the cold numbness


3. Hollow

Ravaged from inside
By these thoughts I struggle to hide
While the radiant cinstellations
Of my mind
Slowly diminish - into obscurity

Gradually extinguishing
The will to hold on
This perpetual repetition
Turns one into mindless drone -
Hollow inside

Kuinka jaksaisin enää yrittää
Käsien haroessa aina tyhjää?
Ylittääkö suru ilon vai ilo surun
Kun tärkempää olisi edes
Tuntea jotain....tuntea jotain
Tuntea jotain

Pysäyttäkää maailma
Jäisin tässä pois


4. Black Infinity

Distant echoes
Silent screams of eerie shadows
In an unknown language
Still so enticing

Descending deeper
As the pressure grows
The glow of the stars fading

The glow of the stars fading
Everything's so blurred
Beneath these murky waters

Coldness
Isolation
Hypothermia
Calmness

After all the pain and the freezing panic
My tears becoming one with the ocean
As my body slowly dissolves into the vast ocean floor

Reaching towards the sunken truth
Gigantic tentacles embrace


5. Nyctophilia

Drown me -
Where our souls wander
Rape me -
Till our minds depart
Hope it would be better than this
Never ending distress

Still nothing lasts forever...
A thought, of comfort and depression
Watching the flower wither
After starting to bloom

Darkness
Nyctophilia