Eterne Still Dreaming 1. Flesh Made Word Day by day and hour by hour Usurper of past glories spent Forgotten gains now long since travelled By the point now left behind Inch by inch and yard by yard A dream within a dream I feel a touch within the cry I die in pain Each moment spent by this obscured light I fall beneath your gaze I crumble at your feet As you tread without a thought As you tread without a thought The life I held so dear I crumble at your feet I fall beside your eyes In faith I grasp your voice A word that is softly spoken The final piercing cry The end remains unbroken In pain I grasp your light Eternal light that seems The final deafening cry The end remains unbroken Day by day and hour by hour A dream within the dream I crumble at your feet In faith I hold your smile Inch by inch and yard by yard I fall beneath your gaze I feel a touch within the cry I fall beside your eyes 2. Divine Divine.... I saw her first through fractured eyes Companion of flesh and pleasure within She raped my soul Through the dark to see the light Soaring over seas of blood I hear her laugh as she watches me fall I am suffering I want to rise above, to find a deeper love Where nothing can touch me, nothing can hurt me She hears my cry and she watches me fall Penetration Menusci of this haemous flow engulfs me I see what is to be, the one to heal Crying, I crawl up from my face Lying without a lie Dying as she stands before me Knowing the way Divine.... Skin torn from my eyes enables me to see Enables me to see I will teach and I will show you The error of your ways Divine.... You die in my arms as the blood spurts and flows And I watch as you die, but it'll do you bo good now You lie in my arms as the blood starts to flow And I watch as you fall, but it'll do you no good now Feel the suffering, ebb away Feel the answer, it's mine today 3. The Crawling Chaos Crawling... darkened shores of raging waters, that live Silent waves cascade now through empty shadows, that die I know my fear, as my mind falls The slow destruction, the crawling.... Chaos, sent by minds of ancient power that still dream Shadows, twisted streams of dark desire, as my mind dies I know my fear, as my mind falls The slow destruction the end of all Now I feel nothing, senses slip away Consumed by shadows that dream still The endless call I hear... I feel them drawing near... 4. Scarlet Field Tell me the lies of Heaven Tell me the lies of Hell I see my life so twisted With deception I see my life My soul is longing for your releasing touch And time passes slowly, seems to linger so much Now let me rest in the scarlet field I only feel in the scarlet field I only know you are there Barbed words, so innocent So close, yet dreams away Unheard yet deafening A sense so subtle in its hold 5. Marionette Insurmountable... the Everest of my soul Inaccountable.... the twisting of my soul Definition lost to me, no wrong no right Now left no clear perspective of my life Cut my strings and let me dance alone Cut my strings, I need to dance Immeasurable... the distance of my soul Impervious... confused I stand alone Cut my strings and let me dance alone Won't you cut my strings, I need to dance Bring all your colours to me Unclothed with rapture cut my strings Swept along on chaos whim Innocent light, cut my strings 6. The Endless Alone at last, I feel free as I can be The darnest hour has passed unhindered and slowly I can see Loneliness is a word that's without meaning And the cold temptations of the flesh present themselves to me Now I live, as you die This endless love this endless pain These senseless coils of life I tear away Night after night, the endless rise in numbers To take their place in mortal skies and take them as they slumber Taste the love, feel the pain To bring to life what once was nought And end this mortal fate I crave you now I see shadows then I see your face, as you draw so near The lies behind the smile I see, and feel the hunger As you take away from me the precious gift that you crave Then I see your face, the loneliness so bitter The smile behind the eyes will always betray you As I take away from you the dreadful hunger You live, I die for you As I begin to fade I feel the blood go through my veins Without the pain of hatred Your breath so hot, you take me now, and I am yours Please take me now before I die 7. Forever You held the stars in your hand, so cluth them tightly A step away from the sands that drift so near In turn I die with the silence that I hear I know I will fade away Fade away..... 8. A Certain Kind of Bitterness I am the truth of the American Dream I am America's necrotic spleen Let me introduce you to a beast called pain Your pain.... And that's the gift I give to you Again and again and again My distorted concept of the world Your world I'm in your face but you won't see me Again and again and again My body slowly seeping out I wait to burst Society, personified Society, I kill I am what you have made of me I kill fulfill my function I am all of your evils and your lies Your lies Society, personified Society, I kill 9. Epilogue Eternity is such a long time, accursed, dispossessed I can no longer inflict my misery Now take my life..... Take pleasure in the corruption of innocence Take my existence for my life has long since left me now Dance the steps of chaos' sick rhyme Weary and listless, I can no longer find my pain The sun it is my life, my god It shows its anger for my life spent And wreaks its pain on my rotten flesh And as I die I see his face Finally now it ends... the pain, beloved cleansing pain Scarlet tears flow with my love as I reach my end Finally now it ends... and now I burn and die And now I rest 10. Thanatos I tore up all these words, the lines that mean so little Just fragments, hated lies Return them to their empty lives, I realise their innocence So sadly lost I hide behind my words, barbed lines of self-destruction That answer me Return them now their lost, I realise they are so alone I know that my words are lying I see in your face the pain is dying Your answer is echoing my grief The anguish of weighted lies Answer me and let me live Silence me and let me die 11. Still Dreaming Dormant walls twisted with its cold perception As skies abound with raging winter, he stands and gazes inwards At dreams and shards of shattered lives That slowly descend into shadowed lives Voiceless cry goes not unheeded He knows the truth, he knows the lies And he knows that it matters not As cries abound with raging life That is not dead which eternal lies After stranger aeons even death may die His steps increase with forgotten pain He cries, he dies, he cries Darkness engulfs, whispered screams of pained rebirth The darkness consumes.... He cries, he dies, he cries Elder gods that slumber as dead Aeons of confinement now unshackled As the chains of torment fade away They rise as long before 12. In Retrospect Beneath a silent sky that shines both ways Entwining in a land forever free I feel the light beyond such darkened days Cast aside and left behind Now left behind..... Create the perfect world, the perfect life, and watch it crumble Clinging onto yesterday as the dream becomes so distant Withheld but not forgotten, I still hear the voice And feel it near, so near.....