Xasthur Subject To Change 1. Holding Yourself Hostage Free to live and free to die I don't see you giving either a try Don't think about what you've left behind You can keep it all in your mind And it'll be your own You're never too old to run away from home You never know what you'll find Prison of choice wasn't as designed Let it be theirs, see if anyone cares They forgot to tax your feet Pick a direction, don't admit defeat You're never too old to run away from home There'll always be another him or her They only held you hostage where you were Don't let the question mark be too dark You're never too old to run away from home We won't call it love or hate There's so much you can't tolerate There's no reason to live here anymore It's just something you can't ignore It's the best tip I could put in your jar These days a dollar won't get you far 2. None of Us Preaching to the choir Doing it with no desire What are these words you sing? If you listen, think or care It's not about anyone or anywhere Your voice and their ear Among the things that live in fear How do they know what they want to hear? You're using names that aren't yours It's not who you are that opens doors In return for your success You keep on giving less and less Steal from but never learn I know where it comes from and what you didn't earn All business and no art Nothing you do comes from the heart Why's their name written on your sleeve? They never gave us anything to believe Always a lie when I ask how you feel You'd rather die than keep it real So many colors sitting at the back of the bus Don't say you're one of us None of us 3. Traffic in Seclusion 4. Shit Creek Some say he's up shit creek Dusted on crack, coke and tweak He aging ten years every week He stood still and never ran Looking for himself in that garbage can Left with opportunities blown The company he keeps leaves him all alone No cure and no way to heal A forgettable past and a bad deal He gave up on himself, they gave up on him He's up shit creek and doesn't know how to swim Throwing away that paddle in your hand He's up shit creek, his life didn't go as planned Some look to yesterday, 'cause tomorrow looks too bleak That's what happens when you're living on shit creek A life he didn't ask for, a life he didn't choose I leave him alone, 'cause he's got nothing left to lose Letters to himself he keeps on writing Refusing to live but he keeps on fighting You can see some of yourself in him When you're up shit creek will you know how to swim? 5. Proven to Be Broken It ran its course, no more beating a dead horse Can't keep on depending on something that's ending What would make you the one To change what's already been done? Take a look at your life and why it stays the same It's time to take some of the blame The company you don't want Is the company you keep Drowning in water that's not too deep Take a look at your life and why it stays the same It's time to take some of the blame Standing behind a system proven to be broken Find the answers that go unspoken 6. Trespassing on Your Own Land 7. Parole Fearing Now that I can see through the cards you're holding It's about that time you should be folding What about all that time you spent? Were you just breathing air and paying rent? Loitering with a car, never going far Have you tested the waters of your soul to see how shallow you are? Got nothing to do after you've paid all those bills Show us who you are using someone else's skills You know your own end and you're on a roll What would you do if you made parole? Loitering with a car, never going far Have you tested the waters of your soul to see how shallow you are? Early for your own funeral if it was nearing You're always late for your parole hearing Can't call it rape when you're running from your own escape 8. Turning Tricks 9. Some Voices Some voices are full of lies Too afraid to think or try It's all the things you wish you wish you would have said Before it's too late and someone's dead Those voices are only regrets in your head Some voices we hear through and behind Wondering which ones are out of their mind Don't know what to feel or say How could you let a scream get in the way? Some voices don't want to change your spiral When I speak the truth I'm crazy or a liar Using the truth for hate Speaking words that never grow or create Some voices will never admit it Those voices have already submitted Some voices are used in excess Voices never used to express Never finding a solution Never coming to a conclusion 10. Down on Their Luck If they weren't already dead they'd just want to die Here's to a living grave in which they lie Knowing things that no one needs to know They're walking with no place left to go Left with a handful of broken tools The streets got them wandering like fools A full dumpster can't keep him fed Living where I hear all the voices in his head A lot of stories written on his face He's got a lot of stories for never leaving this place His skin is gray and dim She was a bigger mess than him He had to leave her On the streets he caught cabin fever He chose the wrong time when he felt her She thought he had a home but he's living in a shelter He tells his tale and he reflects About the good old days in the projects Telling all the losers down on their luck Shouting to the world, he just doesn't give a fuck There's no one on the other end of that phone He's got an audience but he's all alone He can't hear his own voice but he knows what you're saying There's no other role he could be playing Things that don't add up, things that have fallen apart Their life's not much different than their shopping cart... 11. From the Inside Looking In 12. Share the Poverty