Aphonic Threnody
The Loneliest Walk
1. Empathy
I feel nothing
Emptiness pulls me in
Shadows mourn for me
A vessel carrying only heartache
A lost soul Wonders this bleak landscape
I look upon the ground wishing to return
A sadness that can’t be cured
This world means nothing to me
Silence and peace I crave
Broken, I am so broken
I am so broken
A life I could easily forget
My death seems far away
It’s a hard burden to live on
A light, That is all I seek
A chance to feel a warm embrace
These thoughts feed my despair
Cutting through skin to remember
Once I had these dreams
Now washed away forever
When I fall don’t mourn for me
For I’m in a better place
No more tomorrows
Silently I take my last breath
The afterlife will be a haven
I hope for peace but still yearn for pain
I feel alive when I’m hurting
I look and await, I don’t care for anything
I am numb to all that exists
Feeling love but to know what it is
To have empathy but to show none
No one will ever understand me
We are vessels of hate
Born to destroy one another
I can live with destruction
Inside the rage awaits
2. The Sun Will Never Rise
My eyes looked to the night
For a peace I could find
Sadness overwhelmed me
I already knew I was condemned
The air fills with hatred
Every moment is misery
The sun will never rise
For my life was cursed with lies
In the shadow of a dead tree
I lay my head on grassy dew
My body trembles breathlessly
The cold entwines around me
Fading away, my thoughts devour me
A heart that’s empty of love
Do not pity me
For even in death, I’ll be alone
The sun will never rise
Over my place of restless stone
The sun will never rise
For my life was cursed with lies
In the shadow of a dead tree
I lay my head on grassy dew
This earth to which I return
Take my blood, feed your thirst
Echoes of the past fade away
A warm breeze soothes the night
My bones lie silently
For a long time, they felt the warmth
Of summers past and winters to come
Now this landscape shares my secrets
The sun will never rise
For my life was cursed with lies
Mist covers these silent waters
A blanket of despair so cold
In the shadow of a dead tree
I lay my head on grassy dew
I have bled for too long
These old scars never fade
For I am always reminded
That pain remains my friend
The sun will never rise
For my life was cursed with lies
In the shadow of a dead tree
I lay my head on grassy dew
3. Interlude 1 - Moonlight
4. The Loneliest Walk
My feet burn with pain
Sweat drips upon the ground
A distant song plays its harmonies
This wreckage I call my own
Calmness surrounds me
My bones feel lifeless
I know longer plea for mercy
For these horrors grow inside me
Hours turn to days
My corpse a welcome meal
For these dark shapes
They have only time
I am almost done
My last breath all but gone
I ask for death to come quickly
For the omens are bound to me
Gazing to the canvas above
Creating my last memory
Hands touch earth once more
The darkness slowly descends
This is my loneliest walk
Bitterness my last taste
Goodbye to the world I detest
Swallow and consume all of me
The freshness of the morning air
Crows pecking at fresh meat
Soon bones are all that remain
Ghostly figure of shame
Wandering the forests
Looking for a way to escape
This lost soul searches for home
Towards the light it follows
5. To Mourn a Mother
Your soft voice still whispers to me
Memories that still cut deep
Your gentle touch kept me safe
Though the years were not kind
A proud woman you were
A pale glimmer that shone alone
Silently our time together faded away
My anguish, my pain was ignored
Left alone I wept tears of woe
How I longed to hear your voice
Death is always shrouded in blackness
My grief was to be denied
Thrown to the wolves who weave lies
I lay beneath a small window
Looking for the sky to carry away my hurt
I tasted freedom but felt trapped
Would I ever mourn for my mother
An empty shell my tears burned away
Inside I have nothing but fear
How cruel life is to be cast aside without hope
Years have past since you went away
So many days I prayed to die
My god had abandoned me
He left me to rot away in despair
I cursed his name as I opened my skin
Another chapter yet complete
Another chapter yet complete
Another chapter yet complete
Another chapter, Another chapter
Another chapter yet complete
1. Condemnation
Abandoned and condemned
A rotten corpse that slowly decays
Inside I am hollow
All my life blood slowly fades
Emptiness for this world
The seed of hatred quietly flowers
Mouths whisper
Looks of scorn and disdain
These awful feelings will not subside
Secrets only the dead will reveal
Entombed in this chamber I weep
I hover between life and death
The truth slowly seeps out
Like water it finds its way free
I stand no longer accused
The healing will take time
The sun can hide away my grief
The night brings such nightmares
Shadowing my every move
These shackles hold me in fear
I want my freedom I need closure
For I dwell in a deep dark place
Searching my soul for a warm light
Why am I so angry and bitter?
Dwelling in this forsaken hole
My dying wish is for inner peace
This book of lies no longer tricks me
I see through its false ideas
These wasteful tellers manipulate
I hear them and curse at their existence
My condemnation my forgiveness
Bring my shame, swallow my pride
My condemnation, my forgiveness
Bring my shame, swallow my pride
My condemnation, my forgiveness
Bring my shame, swallow my pride
My condemnation, my forgiveness
2. These Four Walls
These walls are my comfort
These walls are my friend
Countless hours staring
Emptiness and no hope
The concrete is cold and grey
Yet I long to be with my old friend
The hours pass so slow
I fear the unknown that awaits
The change will be too much
I’ve lived so long in isolation
Destiny is death without a name
A white stone that fades to dust
Eyes are always watching…always watching
My freedom no longer matters…no longer matters
For these walls are my comfort…my comfort
For these walls are my friend…my only friend
Tears have long dried away…dried away
These memories bare a heavy heart…a heavy heart
To feel the sun on my back…on my back
Gives me peace and solitude
I have looked but found no reason
Crest fallen my liberty vanishes
Footsteps and the rattle of keys
What lies ahead I know not
Blessed is a man with hope
A coffin encased in sorrow
My walls give me comfort
My walls are my friend
My comfort, my only friend
My comfort, my only friend
3. Interlude 2 - To Tell a Story of Darkness
4. A Worthless Life
I opened my arms to welcome you in
Only betrayal, a life full of sin
I’m so sick of these wasteful thoughts
Every battle inside I bled and fought
I drank deeply from a dark well
It pulled me under to a new hell
Cast aside all that I believed
Why had I always underachieved
My hands showed a bleak history
Of stories coated in dark mystery
Longing to find a place to hide
Someone to love by my side
Follow me into oblivion
Across oceans to my fallen kin
The stars guide the chosen way
To the forgotten wherever they lay
When I first crawled out of that hole
The sun burnt my unclean soul
A hopeless witness to a worthless life
A wretched man with a worthless life
A face that no longer resembles who I was
I fear walking alone o be so afraid of a future unknown
The rain runs red over my eyes
As the whole world burns blood
The end is so close
A wretched man with a worthless life
5. The Beginning
The change of the seasons
Bring forth these dead carcasses
The smell of decay lingers
The morning fog ascends
I touch the wet earth
A feeling I know well
The air I breathe gives me hope
A new beginning is born
I long to feel warmth
Too long have I spent in the cold
I have to believe there’s more
Then just this empty dream
My bones ache of a dark history
When I had nothing but loss
The trees sway like memories
That fade amongst the leaves the pain starts
to ease
Each moment is a sweet embrace
For I feel loved once again
My time is just beginning
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