Golgotha
Melancholy
1. Lonely
To express what I feel
To tell what I need
Not to fear anymore
And then walking without chains
All these nights dreaming awake
Creating my own cosmos
Being the God of my own jail
Creating my own people
Making a perfect world in own self
Where everybody obeys me
Building friendly and fragile cities
Where everybody is afraid of me
My whises becomes reality not even thinking about it
People exists here
People exists here
My pleasures carry out 'cause I order it
People is dead
People is dead
People is dead
To express what I feel
To tell what I need
Not to fear anymore
And then walking without chains
I mix myself among them like another one
I speak without any effort
I'm listened and I listen
I talk about what I feel and I listen to their feelings
Both feelings fusionate being mutual
I feel myself relaxed, in harmony and unworried
[yeah]
But everything goes down cities melt
People break down, planets creak like dry ground because
Everything are puppets of madness that try to lie me
And I'm the stupid puppeteer that moves the threads of my intelligence
*I need to leave living between puppets, I want the real world
I need to feel living people not been programmed
Not to be pushed by their terrific look
To deeply breathe with nobody stealing the air
But everything's absurd nothing's better outside
Than into my autistic refuge
Reality is as mad as my madness is
And the only solution is to enter again
Into my universe and dominate everything
To forget the outside
And become the almighty of the absurd [yeah!]
Enter again into my universe and dominate everything
To forget the outside
And become the almighty of the absurd [yeah!]
Of the absurd
Of the absurd
Of the absurd
Of the absurd
Of the absurd [yeah!]
2. Lake of Memories
Like it was wrote
You appear in a place
And not knowing why
Your dreams comes true
Fighting too much to get it [yeah]
So many walls to jump
So many questions to answer
So many problems without solution
So many pain without pardon
And you understand how difficult is
That your eternal dream comes true
And you understand how difficult is
That your eternal dream comes true
I'm caught in a magic spell
In spite of the long distance between us
Day after day
Night after night
My head is going on circles
That makes impossible to me to forget
Although I am
Who denies his help
The image of the dark ceiling
Makes me think in everything I've lived
Makes me think in everything I've had
And now I haven't got
And I feel a current through my dorsal spine
That shakes all my being
Like a void eating my soul
Later I breath, keeping the air,
Keeping the tears, keeping the screams
I unleash it all!
And a descomunal rage invades my eyes
Flooding them with a lake of memories
Happens what happens, they'll always be mine
And will be in my dreams
Which I'll never forget and help me to keep waiting
...to keep waiting
[yeeeah]
3. Nothing
Being at the place of darkness
Where everything that exists, never is
Being in the place of inexistence
Where silence is everything
Where silence never stops
Being in a place I ignore
Where sadness dominates monotony
And I feel the impediment of taking out
The anguish that resounds in my inside
And I feel all his foundless madness
Which oppress me like a thousand gravities
And I feel more presence
That gets lost in the infinity [infinity]
I feel his torture in my being
I feel his screams in my mind
I feel his breath in my soul
I feel his look in my spirit
I try to cry and I have no eyes
I try to hear and I have no ears
I try to smell and I have no nose
I try to touch and I have no hands
I try to burst, and I have no body
I try to burst, and I have no body
I feel his torture in my being
I feel his screams in my mind
I feel his breath in my soul
I feel his look in my spirit
What's the sense of this demented
Function which trapes me?
What's the order of this puzzle
If none of us fits okay?
What's the motive of this whole emptiness
If we don't exist in any concrete point?
What's the answer to everything
If I can't even make
Make a question?
[a question?]
[a question]
All these pleasures, refused
All these sacrifices, in vain
All these prays, with no destiny
All these penances, absurd
All these abstinences
To get a beyond
From the plenty grace
And above all these
Fears to an inexistent God
For this Chaos
[this Chaos]
[this Chaos]
All these pleasures, refused
All these sacrifices, in vain
All these prays, with no destiny
All these penances, absurd
All these abstinences
To get a beyond
From the plenty grace
And above all these
Fears to an inexistent God
For this Chaos
[yeah]
Is this perpetual night, perhaps my personal hell??
Maybe this perpetual night, bring a clear sunrise
Which let me see the sky, that I think I deserve
But until that moment I can only wait and reflect
About everything and nothing
And try to remember the mistakes
That confined me to utter obscurity
4. Raceflections
A race that hates who have [yeah]
More power or are different [woah]
We destroy what we cannot [woah]
Control with our index finger
We think we are powerful
When just a simple feeling
Can change our harmony
Destroying our defenses
And we're so blind
That we fall again
I stand in front of the mirror and look at my race
A race that talks about peace stealing food from the starved
I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself
Stealing food from the starved to make weapons to defend them
We cultive our bodies
And wish to never get old
We make masquerades of lies made up with the pain
Of inferior races
While our brain atrophies
In his cranial cell
I stand in front of the mirror and look at my race
A race that wishes to possess the secrets of eternal life
I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself
And think it's God procreating life in test tubes while praying to creator
*Why have I born human?
My supremacy is my disgrace
Why have I born human?
Always trying to go ahead of our time
Why have I born human?
Yearing to dominate the universe
Not knowing nothing about ourselves
Why have I born human?
Rational material
Born in image and resemblance
Of an unknown God
Unknown God [yeah]
Is this humanity purpose
To end as inorganic
Matter to feed the planet which we destroy
Because we think it's ours?
5. Lost
instrumental
6. Immaterial Deceptions
Always that you find somebody
In a critical moment of your life
Always that you need a friend
And he's the first who comes to help you
Always that you feel content
And he's with you to celebrate it
Always that they abandon you
And he's with you to give confidence in yourself
Always that all is falling over you and
Covers you with a hope's big top [big top]
Always that you believe you've got everything
That you desired to be happy
Think that sooner or later
Though you don't believe it this will be over
Think that when you esteem someone
Harder will be to leave him
Think that feeling's refuges
Are the weakest ones
Think that the columns where they lean
Are like sand with the greed
Later he's not with you
And you're alone again
With no one to hear
And understand you
Your soul will turn in black
And inside of you
That emptiness will grow on you
And will make you to feel powerful
And impassive more and more
More and more and more and more
[more and more]
So never leave anyone
Who wants to open
The doors of your confidence
Not even when you think it
Will never happen again
Never trust anybody
Never trust anybody else
Just in yourself
[yourself]
7. Stillness
Big earth's extensions
Covered by what once
Were free man
And now they're only dust
The mud still keeps some bone
As a relic of their lifes [lifes lifes lifes]
A living shadow dwells keeping cool the memories smell
Only shadow, the void that it feels fill it
His lacking eyes of view and colour don't cry anymore
Sky does for them
His teared voice by the anguish screams
Is still heard in the distance
Maybe confused with the brutal languaje
Of the hurricane rage
How many times it confronted
Against devastation and it won? [won...]
Days pass by surrounded by fierceness and cruelty
Of sadness and regret the hate and the pain walk along
With him, protecting him, agressing him, strenghting the fear
To continue in the grave of existence
Interiority's hades, reason of death is what he needs to keep resisting
To keep tolerating the arbitrariness of daily's suffering
To live in death
To die in life
To freeze the blood to burn the rancour that draw his veins
To burn the body and freeze the mind where inmortality's remembrance will remain
[will remain]
To live in death
To die in life
To freeze the blood to burn the rancour that draw his veins
To burn the body and freeze the mind where inmortality's remembrance will remain
[will remain]
A living shadow dwells keeping cool the memories smell
Only shadow, the void that it feels fill it
His lacking eyes of view and colour don't cry anymore
Sky does for them
His teared voice by the anguish screams
Is still heard in the distance
Maybe confused with the brutal languaje
Of the hurricane rage
How many times it confronted
Against devastation and it won?
8. Virtualis Demens
Cast into somewhere or anywhere
Another way to spend bit more of my life
Dreams turn reality or is this reality??
Black and white squares fills all dimensions
Or maybe it's just a dream
There's no way to wake up
Just a stain in this monochromatic space
Where the only difference it's me
My own silouette is the way between
None or one, truth or lie, black or...
There is no night nor day
Where's up or down, left or right??
How many time have I been here
How long will I be??
My own silouette is the way between
None or one, truth or lie, black or... white
*Someone by my side which I can only feel
Some kind of voice inside of me
Altering all my environment
But I'm my own environment
Someday I'll make the black queen to explain me
Why this tower's movement, for a true king [king king]
Is this reality or it's just a dream?
Or is it infinity?? I'm near to get one of these
Foretold madness attack
If I can change my environment, I can scape
I can scape
Is there any reason to live all of this??
My own silouette is the way between
Live or death, love or hate, beginning or end
I can't feel the wind, there's no heat or cold, fire or ice
How did I arrive here??
Can I ask myself why a life, why a love, why an end??
Dwelling in the deepnedd of a three-d chess
Am I the winner or loser??
I can't put myself in check mate!! [mate mate!!]
9. Caves of Mind
instrumental
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